Beautiful Things

Relocations are always seem to be a turbulent time for me because I always have to ask The Lord repeatedly if He was in that destination or not. This is because if I veer off the road and land in Sodom or the like, I'll loose all my allocations and inheritance. So on this particular occasion, as the clouds brightened that day, I was on my way to go pick up appointment letter for a work in a location I wasn't yet sure it was God who was sending me or whether it was circumstances or the fact that I never imagined returning to that city for anything short-term much more lifelong  practice of Medicine. 🫠 I braced up as I went, I entered one of those aka n'enu buses which had been my regular as I was low on cash and needed to conserve the little on me. Aka n'enu wouldn't give you the best of a travel experience as the vehicles are often ricketty, with road worthiness being on a zero and they drop and pick people at every nook and cranny and as such they en...

One fateful afternoon shortly after I turned 17, I had market errands to run. Mum went to work and had outlined things for us to cook for lunch and dinner. It was my turn to go to market that day so I made the list and counted the money and arranged how I'll bargain to see if I'll have some change (w were allowed to own the change). However an issue came up.  Since that morning, I'd been having this abdominal ache which I wished away, hoping it would resolve after some bowel movements in the white room. The ache kept worsening and I was tempted to ask one of my cousin's to help me run the errands so I could take her turn next time but I advised myself against it, saying that she won't understand and may think I'm feigning an illness (and of course I'd lose the change to her). Due to this, I couldn't leave for market in the morning hours which was our usual. I waited for some relief and once I got the slightest strength, I strode to the market which was a...

  “ Therefore, let he that thinks he stands take heed lest he falls" (1Corinthians 10:12). NKJV This has become a scripture that I can relate well with. Here's a sneak peek into a story: She’d walked into the call room one faithful day and in her usual manner asked: “ Nne Kedu? ” I broke down and wailed, she locked the door and listened. Now this was a lady I’d known that I needed to get close to when I arrived town newly but I didn’t do the full embrace because of maybe delayed obedience or perhaps the fact that I kept looking for opportunities without creating one. In Christianity, these things aren’t hard to create in a circle of Christians who understand why ‘we are’; fellowshipping with one another outside the four walls of the church is what drives home the relationship observed in this body, the body of Christ. I sincerely gave this answer to her: “ I’m not fine. I have exams tomorrow, and I’m here administering chemotherapy. Well, that’s not all…” I went on and poured...

Gleanings from Budapest '23  So while I watched this particular 4×400m race, the tension was high, many were rooting for the stars and stripes to qualify and run in the finals as usual. They had gotten a couple of gold medals already However, the anchor leg and 3rd leg messed up everything. Even though Alexis Holmes upon picking the baton later levelled up and completed the race just behind the leading English team, we weren't quite happy with her but little did we even know that that clumsiness cost them much more: a spot in the finals. They were later disqualified when it was ruled that the actual baton transfer was done beyond the legal passing zone. Phew!🥲 Athletics has it's rules and so does life.  Meanwhile this turned out to be a miracle for Netherlands 🤩 who clinched the gold in yesterday's race having lost out on the gold to the same Holmes many days ago in the mixed relay. Their case was a bit different, it wasn't a clumsy transfer but a fall and loss of...

All that Caleb stated in the post above are valid and I'd love to share my personal experience. Towards the end and even after my NYSC, one of the questions I didn't like hearing was: " so, what's next? "  It wasn't like I didn't have plans or options but I think that's a question we should not be asking people who are transitioning from one phase of life to another. This is because crossroads are critical I guess and you can pray for those at such junctions or simply offer 'unsolicited advice' 😉 because such advices end up being useful on the long run, but either way shaa, don't just ask so many questions. Ok back to the limbo state: As the end came near, I had many things pulling at my attention. I considered Ilorin, Gboko, staying back at Makurdi etc. Finally I decided to go home upon the suggestion of my family, my discipler and friends. At least I go see free food chop while this phase lingered. While at home, offers were coming but ...

Scenario 1 As a teenager, I loved to find my identity in the things I wore. Designer brands trended in my world. From expensive Louboutin and McQueen to affordable Chanel, Gucci and the likes. I was particularly crazy about fragrances. I'd surf the net for good ones with a 'name' but yet within my pockets reach. I believed scents said a lot about a person and I had read in a women's magazine that in order to appear like a decent lady, you needed a feminine perfume that smelled good enough on close range but does not leave a trail 5 miles away as that would only scream 'notice me!'  Due to my quest, I stumbled on Taylor's White Diamond that was gifted my mum but she wouldn't let me have it. I saw Paco Rabanne's Million Man and went online and saw Lady Million which would cost me a fortune if I ventured into it, so I let it be. One day at the market, I stumbled on Victoria Secret's Beauty Rushes. It seemed the perfect scent at the time....

1 Thessalonians 5:23 May the God who gives us peace make you holy in every way and keep your whole being -- spirit, soul, and body -- free from every fault at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. There's a freshness that comes once we obey the promptings God is laying in our hearts. Writing this article, I still struggled with delayed obedience before I started punching my keypads. It took a friend's WhatsApp status to convict me to finally write something and stop delaying. Although I still want to argue about delayed obedience because the older son hesitated before obeying while the younger one said YES sir and went about his business (Matt 21: 28-32) . Well, I don't think we should be like either of them when there's the option of becoming like Peter, Andrew and the two sons of Zebedee ( Matt 4: 18-22 ). Firstly, my main aim of writing today is to obey, it's been a while I wrote and it's been a long standing nudge in my heart to write again but I...

I remember where you brought me from,  Lord I thank you for where I am today,  I see you doing a new thing in my life, Lord I thank you for the future I see🎶 It's been awesome having walked with God for the past 6 years. The journey has been excellent and I know He hasn't finished with me yet. I surrendered my life to Christ when I was 20. And what that meant was that the formative years of my life were almost over. I thought I had picked up a personality and a way of life that would mold me into the future but Mercy said "No". I'd go on to share an aspect. Prior to knowing Christ, I fussed a lot about my looks. On getting to know Him, I still did continue on this path but He (The Lord) began to point at how I dressed, and how I idolized my hair. I was keen on doing whatever it was to make the Lord, my Master happy. So, whatever I felt was the way forward in pleasing Him, I quickly embraced it.  I gained a great measure of help but I also tilted towa...

Day 338 I'm Currently doing Internal Medicine Rotation and I bless God's name today for the gift of life, salvation, strength and resilience to carry on with my mission here on earth. The past couple of weeks had me praying for renewal of strength and zeal, because I actually came to the end of me as a House Officer. I felt drained by the first 3 postings, I felt Internal Medicine was only going to get the crumbs left of me as the other Rotations already took bigger bites off me. So I had to pray repeatedly for God to give me zeal and passion to work so that I can be at my best for my patients. What made the situation worse was the fact that Internal Medicine was one of my worst Postings back in Med School. After asking God for help severally, I think I forgot to keep on asking but He answered anyway. As the days went by, I felt alive again and found zeal to work with.  Days into the posting, I became really sick. I hadn't been that sick in 19 years, I battled i...

Hey, it's been a while I wrote. I just picked up my screen to practice 😆. What do I hope to achieve? Let's see if I'd make any sense. Growing up, I had a lot of teachers give me responsibilities to handle even though I wasn't the Class Monitor or Prefect. Somehow, these 'out of office roles' always found me and I guess they probably shaped me. I also battled low self-esteem and shyness. I've always been a shy and quiet girl in the midst of unfamiliar grounds (timidity maybe), and this made my teachers not to notice me. As early as Nursery and Senior Kindergarten days, teachers would always pick their Prefects from huge physique and outspokenness of which I possessed none. But by middle of  each session, roles got swapped to an extent. They'd finally notice me, probably because the excellence I exuded was always top notch and couldn't compare to the official role bearers. If the teachers needed someone to send to get things done, they...

Day 53 When on Labour Ward Calls, I normally sleep on the seat in order not to miss anything happening, until my second has had some sleep (on calm nights though). On this day, I was so drowsy and the seat wasn’t very comfy. I kept nodding off and the sweet nurses were like; Doc, go to your call room, we’ll call you when there’s something. As I was about leaving, a lady walked in. Sleep ruined, but here's a quick history: It was the 1st pregnancy and she was only 4cm open. Viola!👌I can have some minutes in bed before she progresses. At about 2am, He tapped me. “Go and check up on that lady," was impressed in my heart and as such, I could not resist it. I dragged myself to the Labour Ward and took a detailed history. There was another woman that arrived in my absence. I took her history too and was to call my chiefs for further review. All along, I was thinking, God please show me what the lesson is. I know you didn’t wake me up 'unnecessarily.' I mean, the...

Day 273  I'm currently on my one week leave, we usually take one week leave in between each three months of rotation in the four departments. This leave is my last week in Surgery Department. There's nothing much to write about😁, but just to inform you guys that I'm enjoying my peeps here at home. I'm getting my hair done now, kid sis and cousin passed by and stopped to say hi. I offer them small chops sold in the shop, kid sis goes like, "how many should we take?" I ask her how many she wants. She says, "I'm taking two." In my mind, I'm like no p. Then cousin adds, "why not make it five to round up the amount to be paid?" I still say nothing. On their way leaving, 😄😄😄😄 cousin demands for her 3 but kid sis is like no, we'll share it two and half. I'm laughing at them here. And it crossed my mind that I can actually dare to try that with God. You see, He's our Father and if I, common man, allowed them to ...

CHRONICLES OF THE EXIT Hello lovlies, I made a compilation of some events I  scribbled during the course of my final exams. God taught me that if it weren’t Him leading me, intelligence and self-confidence can fail a man. I thought it wise to share it here so that we’ll remember the ultimate factor that holds our hands as we wade through life’s circumstances. I pray God blesses you through my testimonies. Today 10/6/19: I wrote my most humbling exam in medical school and it was an Exit Exam! I thought I had Surgery all figured out, but not after today's OSPE. It brings to book my earlier note on relays and not having a clumsy transition. This will probably leave me with the lessons of my life: to forever be dependent on God and bend my head to learn Medicine all I can, as long as I live. phew! 🙂 So here's God again teaching me about self confidence, and I still want to argue. Like, “God but I trusted you all the way, I did. I was 'serious' with my revisions...

Day 13 Thank God for whoever invented crocs. After 25+ hours standing and sitting, I noticed nothing. But when it was time to hit the road, my shoe spelt it out for me: I had dependent ankle swelling. It was difficult to fit into those shoes. Meanwhile, I drew some inspiration watching the ever zealous Dr Omeke do her thing like  it was nothing. Like seriously? 5 emergency CS over the night and she kept her cool and was cheerfully looking for more work. Lord, have mercy and give me passion oiled with vision that I may enjoy my work like never before. Retyping this day 13 now, I feel He seriously answered that prayer. Na me dey run now.😁 See Day 251. PS: her name was shared with her permission 

Day 8 In all you do, find time to do the things you love. Else, you may lose yourself and become something you never envisaged. And often, the change is soul wrenching, making  you a monster to your own self. #mussing_from_a_girl_who_for_a_while_left_the_things_she_loves I cannot remember all that prompted this write up. But that day, I was becoming overwhelmed with work and realized how badly I missed fellowshipping with brethren and how refreshed I felt after attending a meeting one of the evenings.

Day 251 It's official! 😄😄 I have OCD for my patients or better still, I have OCD for responsibilities or I'm  just the workaholic everyone claims I am. (  I still doubt them😛) ... It's about 3 weeks to end of Surgery and I must say, I think I kinda prefer O&G and Paediatrics to Surgery sincerely ( except the free daily meals of course 😏🙄 ). I hate being on my toes always and that's what Surgery does to one (me) . In Surgery, you care for your patients 24/7 unlike other departments where once you're not on call, you can have breath of fresh air and not think about work for a minute ( 16hours actually) . After what happened two days ago I came to the conclusion that really I have this workaholic tendency (abi OCD). I and some Sisters did some studies within the week on Trusting God, and as usual, I carried it with me to live it out. So that faithful morning, my team was on call (taking Accident and Emergency cases), I came to work just to basically see pat...

Day 235 😄 Happier now, the fellowship of brethren had a way of bringing light to my day finally. I had a rough morning. I woke up late, had my quiet time which was too quiet with a little bit of rush which on realization, I had to go back to be sure I still remembered all He had taught me (had to check it again now 😝). My main concern in prayer was basically an uplifting. I was dull, really dull, I felt this cloud of heaviness of heart which was gonna affect my countenance the whole day if the Lord didn't lift it. What was the origin? Last night, was my first time of certifying someone dead. It was terrible, but the main terror was whether I was certifying him into heaven as well. Yes, I've had difficulty with geriatric medicine and in extension, geriatric evangelism. I always feel I'm not in the same century with them, even when I talk, I feel they don't really understand. So with this person, there was the 'generational gap' as well as will I say language...

Day 225 Dear, Lately, I've had to pore over my life and have some things checked over again. I wish I was with you already. Reading Eric and Leslie's book has taught me alot and that's part of why I'm writing. The waiting has been long, I don't just mean The Waiting , I mean the waiting of  Heb 13:4 😄🤗. Okay so here's what I wanna say: the pull is getting stronger, but I suppose I'm getting stronger to wait too. Yup!✊ After the last 'no' which left me devastated, and my disciplers sending me across to James 1 and my personal Discovery of 1Cor10:13 , I have a renewed hope to wait. It isn't easy I must confess, having to be on the receiving end and having to consider requests upon request and listening intensely to God to hear O Tread in this path, and never hearing it all these years. I am becoming tired, but for the Ludys , I should stick a lil longer and for all those lessons learned from the above. And for you beloved, lemme stick a lil ...

As the world expects an end in the face of COVID-19, some are asking if a Noah is building an Ark somewhere. 😄 Well, I do know an Ark apt for all forms of destruction. He is Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God.

Day 126 (27/1/2020) Basically everything I'll write today will be in retrospect. I was at my chapter's CMDA students forum. It was the first for the year and thus scheduled for prayers. I had planned on attending earlier and changed my mind but, an hour to the meeting, the Gen Sec asked if I was coming and I said no. Truly, it was indeed a no as I already mapped out the mountain of things to occupy my evening. I went about my plans, spent some time in prayer, and was to get on with other things. A well of worship rose from somewhere (I think a group was praying at the staff welfare hall). I heard them. Oh, it was irresistible. I knew I had to be in that meeting I had cancelled earlier, reasons being that as today was my day off duty, I didn't know when next I'd be chanced to be in the fellowship of brethren. I needed to attend this one. My mountains would come in after I returned. As I prepared, I knew I'd be late but that was better than never. As we were charged, ...