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Inner Beauty

I remember where you brought me from,  Lord I thank you for where I am today,  I see you doing a new thing in my life, Lord I thank you for the future I see🎢 It's been awesome having walked with God for the past 6 years. The journey has been excellent and I know He hasn't finished with me yet. I surrendered my life to Christ when I was 20. And what that meant was that the formative years of my life were almost over. I thought I had picked up a personality and a way of life that would mold me into the future but Mercy said "No". I'd go on to share an aspect. Prior to knowing Christ, I fussed a lot about my looks. On getting to know Him, I still did continue on this path but He (The Lord) began to point at how I dressed, and how I idolized my hair. I was keen on doing whatever it was to make the Lord, my Master happy. So, whatever I felt was the way forward in pleasing Him, I quickly embraced it.  I gained a great measure of help but I also tilted towa

Healing

Day 338 I'm Currently doing Internal Medicine Rotation and I bless God's name today for the gift of life, salvation, strength and resilience to carry on with my mission here on earth. The past couple of weeks had me praying for renewal of strength and zeal, because I actually came to the end of me as a House Officer. I felt drained by the first 3 postings, I felt Internal Medicine was only going to get the crumbs left of me as the other Rotations already took bigger bites off me. So I had to pray repeatedly for God to give me zeal and passion to work so that I can be at my best for my patients. What made the situation worse was the fact that Internal Medicine was one of my worst Postings back in Med School. After asking God for help severally, I think I forgot to keep on asking but He answered anyway. As the days went by, I felt alive again and found zeal to work with.  Days into the posting, I became really sick. I hadn't been that sick in 19 years, I battled i

Growing Up

Hey, it's been a while I wrote. I just picked up my screen to practice πŸ˜†. What do I hope to achieve? Let's see if I'd make any sense. Growing up, I had a lot of teachers give me responsibilities to handle even though I wasn't the Class Monitor or Prefect. Somehow, these 'out of office roles' always found me and I guess they probably shaped me. I also battled low self-esteem and shyness. I've always been a shy and quiet girl in the midst of unfamiliar grounds (timidity maybe), and this made my teachers not to notice me. As early as Nursery and Senior Kindergarten days, teachers would always pick their Prefects from huge physique and outspokenness of which I possessed none. But by middle of  each session, roles got swapped to an extent. They'd finally notice me, probably because the excellence I exuded was always top notch and couldn't compare to the official role bearers. If the teachers needed someone to send to get things done, they'

Medicine and Faith

Day 53 When on Labour Ward Calls, I normally sleep on the seat in order not to miss anything happening, until my second has had some sleep (on calm nights though). On this day, I was so drowsy and the seat wasn’t very comfy. I kept nodding off and the sweet nurses were like; Doc, go to your call room, we’ll call you when there’s something. As I was about leaving, a lady walked in. Sleep ruined, but here's a quick history: It was the 1st pregnancy and she was only 4cm open. Viola!πŸ‘ŒI can have some minutes in bed before she progresses. At about 2am, He tapped me. “Go and check up on that lady," was impressed in my heart and as such, I could not resist it. I dragged myself to the Labour Ward and took a detailed history. There was another woman that arrived in my absence. I took her history too and was to call my chiefs for further review. All along, I was thinking, God please show me what the lesson is. I know you didn’t wake me up 'unnecessarily.' I mean, the

Asking For More

Day 273  I'm currently on my one week leave, we usually take one week leave in between each three months of rotation in the four departments. This leave is my last week in Surgery Department. There's nothing much to write about😁, but just to inform you guys that I'm enjoying my peeps here at home. I'm getting my hair done now, kid sis and cousin passed by and stopped to say hi. I offer them small chops sold in the shop, kid sis goes like, "how many should we take?" I ask her how many she wants. She says, "I'm taking two." In my mind, I'm like no p. Then cousin adds, "why not make it five to round up the amount to be paid?" I still say nothing. On their way leaving, πŸ˜„πŸ˜„πŸ˜„πŸ˜„ cousin demands for her 3 but kid sis is like no, we'll share it two and half. I'm laughing at them here. And it crossed my mind that I can actually dare to try that with God. You see, He's our Father and if I, common man, allowed them to

Final Year Med School Experiences

CHRONICLES OF THE EXIT Hello lovlies, I made a compilation of some events I  scribbled during the course of my final exams. God taught me that if it weren’t Him leading me, intelligence and self-confidence can fail a man. I thought it wise to share it here so that we’ll remember the ultimate factor that holds our hands as we wade through life’s circumstances. I pray God blesses you through my testimonies. Today 10/6/19: I wrote my most humbling exam in medical school and it was an Exit Exam! I thought I had Surgery all figured out, but not after today's OSPE. It brings to book my earlier note on relays and not having a clumsy transition. This will probably leave me with the lessons of my life: to forever be dependent on God and bend my head to learn Medicine all I can, as long as I live. phew! πŸ™‚ So here's God again teaching me about self confidence, and I still want to argue. Like, “God but I trusted you all the way, I did. I was 'serious' with my revisions

A Christian Senior Female Doctor

Day 13 Thank God for whoever invented crocs. After 25+ hours standing and sitting, I noticed nothing. But when it was time to hit the road, my shoe spelt it out for me: I had dependent ankle swelling. It was difficult to fit into those shoes. Meanwhile, I drew some inspiration watching the ever zealous Dr Omeke do her thing like  it was nothing. Like seriously? 5 emergency CS over the night and she kept her cool and was cheerfully looking for more work. Lord, have mercy and give me passion oiled with vision that I may enjoy my work like never before. Retyping this day 13 now, I feel He seriously answered that prayer. Na me dey run now.😁 See Day 251.

Solution to Doctor's Burnout

Day 8 In all you do, find time to do the things you love. Else, you may lose yourself and become something you never envisaged. And often, the change is soul wrenching, making  you a monster to your own self. #mussing_from_a_girl_who_for_a_while_left_the_things_she_loves I cannot remember all that prompted this write up. But that day, I was becoming overwhelmed with work and realized how badly I missed fellowshipping with brethren and how refreshed I felt after attending a meeting one of the evenings.

The good doctor and her patients πŸ€—

Day 251 It's official! πŸ˜„πŸ˜„ I have OCD for my patients or better still, I have OCD for responsibilities or I'm  just the workaholic everyone claims I am. (  I still doubt themπŸ˜›) ... It's about 3 weeks to end of Surgery and I must say, I think I kinda prefer O&G and Paediatrics to Surgery sincerely ( except the free daily meals of course πŸ˜πŸ™„ ). I hate being on my toes always and that's what Surgery does to one (me) . In Surgery, you care for your patients 24/7 unlike other departments where once you're not on call, you can have breath of fresh air and not think about work for a minute ( 16hours actually) . After what happened two days ago I came to the conclusion that really I have this workaholic tendency (abi OCD). I and some Sisters did some studies within the week on Trusting God, and as usual, I carried it with me to live it out. So that faithful morning, my team was on call (taking Accident and Emergency cases), I came to work just to basically see pat

The Junior Doc

Day 1 Stomach was on royal rumble, soles sore, toe nails on fire. 2 hours of Pre Rounds despite having an older collague helping out. Missed the Morning Reviews I had longed to attend. I wonder whether it will be basically work and no learning, the missing wasn’t what I bargained for. Some hours of my sleep have to go now, so that Pre Rounds will be done in time. Here's the juice: Higher Rounds: Me: dah dah dah.. not knowing much of her history. Senior 1: Back date your rounds. Me: *In my mind* shuuuu! I didn’t hear you well. God not today please. *Speaking,* pretends I heard nothing. Seniorjunior 2: "Write 18th..." (goes on to repeat it like 20 times.). Me: (I keep doing what I'm doing and writing other things). Senior junior 2: Give me that pen, (writes it and then goes) “she has no money…, we should have discharged yesterday but she wasn’t in bed and we didn’t, so…” Senior 1: So tell me, why didn’t you write what I asked you to write? Me : (much silence

We meet Dying People

Day 235 πŸ˜„ Happier now, the fellowship of brethren had a way of bringing light to my day finally. I had a rough morning. I woke up late, had my quiet time which was too quiet with a little bit of rush which on realization, I had to go back to be sure I still remembered all He had taught me (had to check it again now 😝). My main concern in prayer was basically an uplifting. I was dull, really dull, I felt this cloud of heaviness of heart which was gonna affect my countenance the whole day if the Lord didn't lift it. What was the origin? Last night, was my first time of certifying someone dead. It was terrible, but the main terror was whether I was certifying him into heaven as well. Yes, I've had difficulty with geriatric medicine and in extension, geriatric evangelism. I always feel I'm not in the same century with them, even when I talk, I feel they don't really understand. So with this person, there was the 'generational gap' as well as will I say language

The Waiting

Day 225 Dear, Lately, I've had to pore over my life and have some things checked over again. I wish I was with you already. Reading Eric and Leslie's book has taught me alot and that's part of why I'm writing. The waiting has been long, I don't just mean The Waiting , I mean the waiting of  Heb 13:4 πŸ˜„πŸ€—. Okay so here's what I wanna say: the pull is getting stronger, but I suppose I'm getting stronger to wait too. Yup!✊ After the last 'no' which left me devastated, and my disciplers sending me across to James 1 and my personal Discovery of 1Cor10:13 , I have a renewed hope to wait. It isn't easy I must confess, having to be on the receiving end and having to consider requests upon request and listening intensely to God to hear O Tread in this path, and never hearing it all these years. I am becoming tired, but for the Ludys , I should stick a lil longer and for all those lessons learned from the above. And for you beloved, lemme stick a lil

In the midst of stress, He holds my hands

Day 204 Terrible Day, Woke up still having this excruciating pain I slept with. It's not a new pain. First started some 6 years ago. But I cannot remember the last time I had it. It showed me signs last week but normalized. I strongly feel it's the stress from days 184-202 that caused this. It was a terrible 3 weeks. Back to back poor sleep, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week call. I was told ladies aren't allowed to go through that unit, and the guys that go there are usually paired with ladies. When I came to get signed in on day 184, I had told him that I'm convalescing, Paediatrics last call had me do it sick and turned out the most hectic call I ever did in all my 92 days with themπŸ™„. Entered that call sick and came out sicker and had to go off for one week to recover. I returned still a little weak. I asked to be signed into a cool place so as to rest a while but he didn't budge. I still feel I was snitched on as in someone probably told him about my at

ARK

As the world expects an end in the face of COVID-19, some are asking if a Noah is building an Ark somewhere. πŸ˜„ Well, I do know an Ark apt for all forms of destruction. He is Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God.

Prepare for Kingship

Day 126 (27/1/2020) Basically everything I'll write today will be in retrospect. I was at my chapter's CMDA students forum. It was the first for the year and thus scheduled for prayers. I had planned on attending earlier and changed my mind but, an hour to the meeting, the Gen Sec asked if I was coming and I said no. Truly, it was indeed a no as I already mapped out the mountain of things to occupy my evening. I went about my plans, spent some time in prayer, and was to get on with other things. A well of worship rose from somewhere (I think a group was praying at the staff welfare hall). I heard them. Oh, it was irresistible. I knew I had to be in that meeting I had cancelled earlier, reasons being that as today was my day off duty, I didn't know when next I'd be chanced to be in the fellowship of brethren. I needed to attend this one. My mountains would come in after I returned. As I prepared, I knew I'd be late but that was better than never. As we were charged,