The good doctor and her patients 🤗

Day 251

It's official! 😄😄 I have OCD for my patients or better still, I have OCD for responsibilities or I'm  just the workaholic everyone claims I am. ( I still doubt them😛)...

It's about 3 weeks to end of Surgery and I must say, I think I kinda prefer O&G and Paediatrics to Surgery sincerely (except the free daily meals of course 😏🙄). I hate being on my toes always and that's what Surgery does to one (me). In Surgery, you care for your patients 24/7 unlike other departments where once you're not on call, you can have breath of fresh air and not think about work for a minute (16hours actually).

After what happened two days ago I came to the conclusion that really I have this workaholic tendency (abi OCD). I and some Sisters did some studies within the week on Trusting God, and as usual, I carried it with me to live it out. So that faithful morning, my team was on call (taking Accident and Emergency cases), I came to work just to basically see patients and watch out for consults. By Midday, no emergency had shown and it was also red day; waves of light-headedness as well as my abdomen trying to jump out of me. So I decided to go home and check back in two hours time. 2pm, nothing. I decided to hang around a while, then I remembered this trust thing and immediately there was this clarity in my heart that I wouldn't get any consults that day, so I should just go home and rest. People of God, hehehe, Ifeoma-Chiamaka isn't used to that level of lackadaisical attitude to work o. "Like God you mean I should just go home and not think about work?"

Well I decided to try it out. Got back to work around 6pm to pick call food and decided to check, nothing. Wow this trust thing was working. When I left by 8pm (one of the earliest I've left in a while 😏) there was still nothing. I decided to have a good night sleep without disturbance. By 6am the next morning, there really was nothing over the night and boom, God gained Himself another chica that will be trusting Him always. 😉

The whole experience made me learn and agree with my friend that the only thing we lose when we trust God is ourselves. I lost my self that day. (My OCD workaholic nature 🤦)

Talking about this nature, it's part of the human nature that I need to die daily to o. It's a serious something. You need to see Dr Mama Ejima (my neighbour) begging me to calm down and take a rest. I usually dunno how to🤦. I agree with Chiebs my med school roommate, who rightly called me workaholic and dad who observed early that once I put my mind to something, I go for it with everything. Meanwhile, it's only at home that I don't have OCD for anything. No, I used to, shaa. I had to get therapy on how to calm down, delegate and pretend I dunno anything is going on, even if things were about to spoil.

So eh, 🤔 can I practice same thing with human lives? Just pray that God will help me find a balance.

PS: It's not the real Obessesive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), but something very similar🤪🤪.